Repeating patterns, self-sabotage and the journey to trusting yourself

 Self love and learning to trust your inner voice is a journey.

The last couple of years l've invested a lot in courses, books and experiences to learn about my patterns and behaviors.

Here are the things l've been dealing with:

• People pleasing,

• not being able to make decisions, looking for approval or a leader to follow, wanting to completely lose yourself in a relationship, wanting to become one, completely merge with your partner, giving up your wants and needs to not be a burden or to make the relationship work,

• feeling responsible for other people's experience, learning about boundaries and saying no, trying to save people,

• trying to be the peace maker between other people's conflicts,

• escaping into fiction/gaming/social media, ...

I believe self love and "finding yourself" and being true to who you are is a daily choice.

It also doesn't mean you never slip into these old behaviors.

But learning WHY you do what you do can make you learn to understand yourself. And lots of times you do these things because of LOVE & LOYALTY for others.

And then you learn the most important lesson of all: you need to love yourself and take care of yourself first.

When you are deeply fulfilled with love and acceptance and loyalty for yourself, you will not be so inclined to step into these old behaviors l've mentioned above.

It is a journey to discover, to dive deep, to look at uncomfortable things and old wounds. ∞

I had lots of amazing teachers, coaches and friends to walk beside me during these years, and I'm so grateful for them.

The next stop in my journey is completely focused on enjoyment, pleasure, play while also connecting to my power and growing my business. 

If you feel triggered by this post, and you're interested in working together, dm me. It's win-win!